Thursday, October 25, 2012

Tabby Update: 10-25-2012

I'm running out of clever pictures to put at the top of these posts...

Tabby did round 10 of chemo this week, followed by Nulasta (the evil, evil drug) on Friday, more lab work, and more hydration next week.  She's been very ill lately, with severe migraines and nausea beating her into the ground.  Last week, the migraines got the worst they'd ever been, to the point that Tab did something she didn't want to do...  She took liquid morphine.  Yes, the doctor prescribed it specifically for her headaches, but because it's so addictive, Tab was wary about taking it.  After three days of being unable to tolerate even the dimmest light, she took a dose.

No effect.

One hour later (as per the instructions), she took a second dose.  The result was the best nine hours of sleep Tabby's had in years.  She woke up without a headache, without nausea, and feeling almost like her old self again.

Tuesday, she saw the doctor, who said her kidneys are functioning perfectly, which is wonderful.  When she asked if Tabby felt strong enough for another round of chemotherapy, I half expected her to say no.  I've sat up with her many nights and heard her say that she's tired of feeling like shit and watched her cuddle Rudy (her little stuffed elephant I bought for her at the circus) and Cthulhu (big stuffed plushie from our friends Ward and Nikki), and it's obvious she's miserable.  But she said yes.  She said she was strong enough.  Later when I asked her why, she said this:  "I want this shit out of me.   I'm not quitting."

That's my girl. And that's why I love her.

Again, thanks to everyone for all your love and support.  Tabby needs to hear how loved she is.  Your messages give her strength.

As an aside, I'm sure everyone is aware of all the pink running amok in our country, as it is "Breast Cancer Awareness" month.  I have nothing against it... I'm quite fond of ta-tas in all their many shapes and sizes.  But I don't wear a pink ribbon.  I don't wear a pink gum-bracelet either.  I wear an enameled teal and white ribbon pin and bracelet.  Those are the colors of cervical cancer awareness.  I'm all for breast cancer awareness and education, but why is the month only dedicated to the one specific type?

On the campus where I work, there are many folks who mean well and who are selling pink ribbons and gum bracelets.  One of them approached me, and in her snottiest possible voice informed me that I was wearing the "wrong colors" and I needed to swap out my ribbon and bracelet for the pink ones that they were selling.  I, of course, bristled at miss Hairbow, and calmly explained to her that I didn't want to exchange them.  She asked why.  I replied "because breast cancer isn't what's trying to kill my wife."  The look on her face, though priceless, was indicative to me that, while breast cancer is terrible, people should be reminded that it's not all there is.  There are people suffering from every kind of cancer, and their voices deserve to be heard.

So here's the obligatory plug for DROPLETS, the short story collection which is helping to pay for my wife's medical expenses.  If you've bought one, thank you.  If you haven't and you want to, thanks.  And if you don't want to, don't buy it.  Thanks for just reading this far.  And for those who wish to show support for a victim of cancer of any type, head over to choose hope for ribbons, pins, and all other forms of stuff.  The good thing is, these people actually do donate enormous sums from their sales to research for finding a cure.

Again, thanks for reading.  Love you guys.


  1. Hi Scott. I'm Nikki's Aunt Vicki. I'm so sorry for everything you and your family are going through. Cancer is a vicious,vicious disease. Sometimes I think the treatment is just as bad or worse. If it is okay,I will add your family to my little prayer list. Sincerely,Vicki Smith Earnest

  2. I don't know how you do it. Honestly. You both have so much on your plate. But you both continue to inspire me. Your updates always come when I'm feeling lowest and then I feel selfish about my own petty problems. Thank you for sharing with us. It helps me remember to think about others more. Here's for more prayers for you and your wife.

  3. I'm pulling for you guys! Power and strength to your Tabby, because chemo and nulasta are bitches! I know what you mean about the pink ribbon thing. As a lady fighting breast cancer, I'm a bit sickened by the "I'm wearing pink so I'm aware" syndrome. Cancer is an f'ing a'hole that killed my Dad, my aunt, my granddad and is trying to kill me. Colored ribbons can't capture the pain and struggle we all go through trying to beat this thing. Anyway, my prayers and thoughts are with you. Wish I could buy 1000 copies of Droplets because she's worth it, you are too, and the stories are fantastic besides.

    Donna M from SHU Alumn

    1. Thank you Donna. Means a lot to me. More than you'll ever know.

  4. So glad to hear Ms. Tabby is bringing her awesome fiestiness to the fight. You guys are so wonderful and I'm continuing to pray for your beautiful family.

    As to the focus on just one type of cancer during this month, I'm with you. I've had older aunts who have fought breast cancer, and it's a terrible thing. But cervical cancer comes so much closer to home for me. I have three friends who are my age and have suffered from cervical cancer. It deserves the same attention.

  5. Scott, you and your family hang in there! I admire Tabby's strength so much, and your love for eachother. Your family is amazing. As a midwife/women's health provider I'm grateful for your reminding everyone of cervical cancer. People forget how devastating it can be. Many mantras for Tabby and your family. I'm visualizing her health and lighting a candle for you all. Blessed be.